Waiting...

It's only been 6 days since the IUI and I am going insane. I keep swinging from feelings of extreme hope to extreme negativity. I've even rehearsed in my head how my meltdown will go down. I know that's bad and negative, but it's instinctive to guard my heart.

I just can't even begin to think about anymore rides on the roller coaster. The cycle of hoping, waiting and disappointment over and over and over again can drive one absolutely insane.

I just want this to end.

On the bright side, we've had our best chance yet. Why wouldn't God want to give me the desires of my heart?

Still holding out hope...